Lemme see my kids f#n C*nt

"I get two weeks, fuckin' cunt, it's my right, bitch, and if you don't bring them to me, you'll go to JAIL"
I once did that, brought the children to him for a weekend visit, delivered them to his front door like a good little statistic of the family court system. When it was time to pick them up, I knocked on the door, nothing, I knocked again. Where are they, it's time to pick them up? Five minutes, then ten pass, finally my son comes to the door and opens it, wearing only a pull-up. He was so happy to see me, I picked him up and called for my daughter, heart pounding. I hear my daughter say "mooommy?" I walk in to find her soaked in urine on his couch, hair matted, and watching television, alone at 11:00 in the morning. I see that there are KFC snackwiches in a bag, wrappers strewn around the table, and thousands of ants crawling on them and the stack of telephone books my son had been using as a makeshift high chair. Where is daddy? I ask. He is asleep. What did you guys do? Mostly watched movies but it was gross, daddy was kissing his friend a lot.

You should kill Yourself

"You are a worthless human being. You fail. You are fail.You should kill yourself."
He has a penchant for exparte, this is the most cowardly act imaginable as the other party not only doesn't know that the children can be legally kidnapped, but cannot defend him or herself against allegations that can be anything a sick mind could dream up. He managed to get temporary custody of my children once but rather than take them to his home, he gave them to his sister. I went to her house to get them and was threatened with arrest and violence. I went to the local small town police and they turned me away because of the paperwork. It took me a week to get a writ of habeus corpus and and during this time he sent me texts telling me that I would never see my children again so I should kill myself. When I picked my children up, they were, traumatized, filthy, hair matted, and my youngest, who was still on the breast at the time, had a diaper rash that needed medical attention. The sister's basis for keeping me away? Two year old should not be breast fed, it's sick and inappropriate, therefor she should be the foster mother (and conveniently draw a check to subsidize her own children). I just wanted my children, didn't care that she still had their things, I bought a new car seat and as I drove away with the children, she threw my sons car seat at the rear window of my car, where the children were seated.

Even More Quotes

"Your mom kidnapped the kids and tried to kill them"
Really? My mom took them on a vacation that he and I both agreed to, me because I had to work to support our kids and my mom was the babysitter, him because I later found out that he had been serving jail time for possession on marijuana with intent to distribute in the state of MO, lost his job, and moved to a rented room across from a movie studio in the ghetto. He said that the vacation time would give him an opportunity to find gainful employment and asked me to pick him up at the bus station and bring him food and blankets! He had a huge dagger on him and it was confiscated by police or he would have killed me! My mother and children were hit by a drunk driver who is now serving life, my grandma died in the wreck and he and his family did as follows:
*opened a DHS investigation into negligence on my mother's part and my part because of the wreck that my mother had no control over and lost her mother in.
*his mother took a picture of my daughter in a coma and they started a website with it soliciting donations that they kept
*they tried to SUE my mother for loss of income (ruining his chances at finding a job?)
*they tried to take over custody and during the legal battle my daughter's health suffered and they blocked us from putting my daughter in a rehab facility locally. I was forced to drive my daughter in critical condition to a rehab facility 8 hours to their home state and after she was rehabilitated, custody was restored to me and she was released to me
*they even kept the toys and books that my family and friends had sent my daughter, and his mother sent a few of them the next year as a Christmas present

I should have left you in Oregon

"I stopped loving you in Oregon, you are a terrible person and I knew then that I didn't love you."
So, I pose this question; why, then, did he follow me home to my parents house and beg them to let him move in, after I left him and wanted nothing further to do with him? I wanted nothing more than to be free of him and have a normal life without violent craziness.  I wanted to leave him everyday, all day, every moment of my life, but he would cut himself and threaten to kill himself in front of me to control me. Then when we went to therapy, he acted like everything was okay. Why can I still not be free? Why are my children a way for this person to continue to terrorize me? What will happen to my children when he is with them? Will he threaten to kill them?

Encouraging Words For the Young Wife and Mother

"I agree, you do need to loose weight, you should try meth, it will give you lots of energy, to clean the house."

"Can you believe this guy, he got his wife's name tattooed on his arm, dumb. Everybody knows you don't do that, tattoos are forever, hoes are not."

"I like your look, it's like the Sultan's daughter. You should straighten your hair though, so it's smooth."

"You need cooking lessons"

"You can get a job at Walmart"

"You are not an artist, you should give up this pipe dream, you can get a job at Walmart or Mc Donalds, or anywhere."

"You don't really need to go to college, I can make us more money."

"Why do you need clothes or shoes?! I'm the one who works! Get a fucking job cunt and buy your own clothes and shoes"

"You should quit your job, they are making fun of you"

"You should quit your job, you don't make enough money there to make that job worth your time and you're not very good at it anyway."

"Maybe you can go to college after I finish going to college"

"I'm sorry I got your bank account closed but that banker was trying to swindle you out of money, I did not overdraw your bank account, he's a LIAR!"

"I'm sorry I wrecked the car your stupid fucking hillbilly/terrorist family gave me to get to work because I was high and had tunnel vision and pulled out in front of another car, broke the front axle, then refused to pay for the repairs and then left the car to rust in a field."

"You shouldn't go to that salon anymore, they are just making fun of you, they ruined your hair."

"You're family does not love you, let's move far away from them"

"Your mom is a Pink Hippo"

"Your family are all inbred retards"

"Your family are terrorists, no, greedy capitalists, no communists. I hate your family"

"If you ever leave me I will kill myself"

"If you don't forgive me I will kill myself"

"I'm going to kill myself!"

"I'm going to bash my brains in"

"You are making me cut myself"

"I'm punching myself in the eye and then going to tell everyone you did it because basically, you made me do it, so you are responsible"

"You are violent and psychologically abusive" (Really? I had never been exposed to violence before, especially not self-inflicted violence that is supposedly my fault)

"No, I won't hold the baby so you can clean but I will take pictures of the mess and keep them forever."

"You need to shut your fucking son up!"

"Sorry I punched a hole in your bedroom wall, daughter"

"I'm going to kill myself, your making me kill myself"

"You make me want to die, you can't EVER leave me, I've got a knife to my throat"

"I'm cutting myself because you are mean and don't do what I want you to."

"Sorry I pulled your hair out when we were arguing about my drug use and lack of involvement in family activities, dear.I'm too busy chatting online now, I don't want to go anywhere with my family right now, what's for dinner and I kinda need my laundry done"

"Sorry I kicked you in the stomach when you were pregnant."

"Would you be interested in a wife swap with a lesbian couple for one night? Oh well, I'll just leave you with one of them anyway, while I go fuck the other one"

"Ask your parents for money"

"Ask your parents for some money, please"

"You need to call your parents and ask for money"

"My sister has this really great investment opportunity, call your parents and ask them if they would loan us a few thousand dollars for it"

Letter to young wife's family after they witnessed him hair pulling during an argument: "Dear in laws, I'm very sorry about my behavior. I love your daughter very much and would never want to do anything to ruin my relationship with you, my family. We will work on our relationship and I can assure you, something like this will never happen again." (until I choke her neck and kick her pregnant stomach)

 "I did not really expect you to divorce me, I just wanted you to change!"

Tell me living with a person who self harms, cuts himself, hits his head on things, punches himself and tries to choke himself with an electrical cord is easy. Tell me you could stay sane living with a person who degrades you constantly, sometimes overtly and sometimes passively, who physically abuses you and lies to you about it, like it never happened. When other people became involved, he behaved normally and was somehow able to fool everyone into thinking I was the one with problems. After living like that, with that person for six years, of course I developed mental problems, who wouldn't? When you are constantly held as an emotional hostage and not allowed to have opinions contrary to his, not allowed to do anything without this person's consent and approval, you are told everything you know is wrong, everything you believe about yourself is stolen, and replaced with hatred and violence, of course you will develop problems, unless you are a trained mental health professional. My twenties were spent trapped in a sociopath's prison, trying to pretend I could have a normal family and be a good mom to my kids, while dealing with the insurmountable stress of living with this person. Even after moving on with my life and going to trauma resolution therapy, I still have problems feeling completely safe and secure, I'm hyper alert and overprotective of my children and never really am able to relax or feel at ease.

Die in the Gutter

"You are a worthless, lazy, stinking ass. You will die in the gutter as I drive by in my new car, laughing. You should kill yourself, you are your mother. You are nothing but a worthless whore. Foster care would be better than the kids living with you, you stupid fucking whore. No, I can't take care of them right now but I can give them to my sister, at least then I can see them once in a while. You need to die fucking stupid cunt." (coincidentally, said car was later repossessed after losing one of many jobs and he ended up moving in with his disabled uncle and took his truck)

Thoughts on Child support

"Who will you get your ex-wife support from when I'm not around?"

Quotes

Quotes

One year post divorce: “Let's be honest, your son is the product of whatever redneck you were fucking”

Five years post divorce: “I love our son with all that I have to love but you need to be honest with him about his existence, I remember it like it was yesterday, you had been whoring and we only had sex one time that month, I was about to come and told you to get off, basically, you raped me”

Six years post divorce: “I'm going to claim our son for child tax credit on my income tax refund, like I always do.”

“Sorry I told you I got you an awesome Christmas present, daughter, and actually said it was for Christmas, and promised to send it at Christmas but daddy doesn't celebrate Christmas.”

“Dear daughter, I'm taking on a roommate to help with bills so I can send it to you. It's just that mommy takes all of daddy's money.”

“I'm sorry sweetie daughter but your mommy won't let you see me”

Called him before daughter's 2nd surgery: “Fuck you you fucking cunt! I'm at work! Fuck off!”

During daughter's 3rd surgery, he calls: “Lemme talk to my kids you fuckin cunt”

While I'm driving my daughter to surgery #4 in heavy traffic, calls and says “Guess what bitch? I'm getting married” and hangs up

Three years later tells my daughter he is dating someone new

One year later texts me “finally found someone who will never give up on me, which you gave up on me right away. It doesn't take a whole lot to be better than you”

“You are one fucked up cunt”
"You've been pushing me away for years, the day I finally just thought I was less than you was the day you had nothing more to take away from me"
"You never send me pictures of the kids"
"No, I didn't get those years of pictures, information, and videos, you never sent me anything! You're lying, you never send anything and you wont let me see them you evil bitch"

“I tried and tried for years now they hate me and you have to force them to say anything to me and I don't believe in forcing them”

“It's awkward and they don't want to talk to me so WTF?”

“I'm what's left of what used to be a person”

“I live in a basement in the hood”

“You have a cold, black heart, violent psychologically abusive and you are ugly”

“I have turned to religion, so I can pray for your death with legitimacy”

“I never get back a single text! I never get any pictures, fuck you I know when I'm just a memory”
"You need to let go"
"You are constantly contacting me with nonsensical information, fuck off bitch!"
"You only send me information about the kids so you can pretend to be close to me"

“STFU you idiot”

“Shut up cunt”

“Shut up whore”

“You need to go away in your swill which is also your patheticness (actual spelling)”

“boohoo you fucked yourself, cry cry cry, sorry no sympathy and I do pay my child support when I have a job you dumb cunt so fuck you”

“what did you pay from 2001-2006? WRONG the answer is not a damn thing bitch”

when asked why he claimed our son on his tax return for a year he didn't pay support:

“Your argument is invalid as my debt increased and over time I will have to make up that amount so in fact I did accrue debt that will apply to that time period. I pay child support every time I have a job, you never let me have visitation, you are already winning why be a bitch”

“You have denied every visitation since 2008 (daughter underwent surgeries in 2008, 2009, and in 2010. I offered to fly children to him for visitation after she healed but he was having personal problems at the time and said no, in 2012, I drove them to his home state and he didn't come to see them)”

“ you know damn well I wasn't going to drive no hour and a half to where you and your hillbilly fam were, to get the kids”

“I just got my own place ina nice area”

“Fuck you you stupid fuckin cunt stay the fuck out of our conversations”

“I'm trying to survive, her present is coming soon and I'm not a christian and neither are you so stfu, I don't live with a girlfriend, I live alone”

“poor little rich girl”

“Stop demanding support and live off your rich family! It's not like I see the kids and it's not like they want to see me!

“While it may be true that I almost immediately lost all love for you I wanted a life for my kids so I put up with your shit as long as I could”

“kill yourself, please kill yourself”

"die bitch, why won't you fucking just kill yourself?"

“I judge people on individual merits and I hate you because you're evil”

“I can pass a piss test, I've passed three in the last six months” (why?)

"your ex-wife support, your child tax credit for our son? That's going to me. That's where our son's child tax credit is going, bitch, deal with it's the situation you created"

“hahahahah you are so obsessed, I was in jail for one day that time, with that one girl that was a nice piece of ass mmmm, I've had so much better since I left you. I just used you when I thought I was worthless” (ex wife filed for divorce)
If you read all of this and are not crazy yet, imagine dealing with someone like this day after day, imagine what this does to your sense of self worth while trying to work and raise a family with little financial assistance from this person, but with constant fear of a not without my daughter situation. Fearing that he will show up one day and stab you or take your kids from school, and tell me this man is not a criminal.